emotionally masochistic.

I went asking for wisdom and I got it, and it's exactly what I wanted to hear. No one knows him better than he does, and who he is is a closely guarded secret (perhaps even to himself). So how do I get around that one? I don't. I accept him and am probably the only person with the ability to do so, no matter how much this may miff him. Because all I've ever wanted is acceptance for who I am, I can easily accept others' flaws and quirks. As someone outside of myself, it makes no sense why he'd want nothing to do with me (and I have a hard time believing he really has no desire to be around me). Why? Well, he acts like he cares plenty of times no matter how many times he asserts that he doesn't.

True, he wouldn't know romance if it kicked his ass. And maybe this is merely a clue to me to take charge and take what I can get. If he moves, so be it. I'll find a way to keep in touch. Even if he doesn't want to be mine, he'll always be a friend... and it's not unusual for friends to keep up with each other.

I know it doesn't make sense, but I'll keep trying.