this is all speculation, really.

Coming to terms with being less than what you want to be is always difficult. And maybe I'm just thinking too much. He might have had to pull a double shift, he might have just ignored me. You can never tell with him because he's missing some vital common sense. He doesn't call to warn me of things such as this, but I can see that he's not alone if he is still at work (so why..?). Knowing who's with him, though, I can see it turning out like this.

But I'm going to prove to him that he's wrong. I don't need him, or anyone else. It's just more fun to pass time with good company. If he wants to be alone that badly, then I'll let him. I'll stop trying and just be and we'll see if he misses it.