it seemed like a good idea at the time.

I don't understand you. I really don't. Haven't you learned by now that backpedaling really doesn't get you anywhere? In some bicycles, this even initiates the brake. So what are you doing? Why? Are you stupid? Are you blind? Well, I suppose this can be inferred judging by past actions, but that's just it- judging. I don't want to judge you. I want you to open your eyes. Selfish selflessness is just as bad as regular selfishness.