so what's a crush to do?

So drown your mind out and scar your liver, it’s not like you need it anyway. Slow-motion feelings have a way with words. On the outside, looking into my own life I see a lonely girl with potential and no real desire. There’s more to her than meets the eye, if only she knew… and even if I told myself all of this it doesn’t matter because life isn’t worth it to me if I’m alone. I’m the kind of kid that needs attention and if I’m not getting it then I’m better off dead. No, don’t think like that, honey. Do you really want to put your friends through that? What friends are those? Why, you have so many you don’t even know. But what’s the use if they never make their presence known? You’ve got me there, kid.

All I wanted was one measly phone call. Was it really so much to ask?

I know what I’m afraid of, but the real question is do you? Falling in love shouldn’t be scary, but I know where you’re coming from (perhaps all too well). I just wish you’d trust me. I just wish I knew all the details. I want to understand where you’re coming from because while I can relate, I’ll never really know. I’m not you, no matter how much I wish I was. I just can’t get into your head…

Overheated and dimwitted by now, I’ll leave my thoughts to circle. It’s time to go back to pretending that life is a game with little plastic vans you stick people on top of.